The last 3 posts I wrote were about squatting pain free… well, 2 years and 9 physicians later.. I’m still not there. The latest diagnosis is that I very likely have an osteophyte in my knee that needs to be surgically removed.
To anyone reading this, the answer to “Have you tried Dr <insert name here> ?”, the answer is probably yes.
But thats not what this post is about.
10 months ago, I met with an Orthopedic Surgeon, who suggested that I try injecting my knee with Cortisol. In my desperation to finally be able to squat again, I agreed.
Within the month, I had gained 6 kilos. Over the next 2 months, another 2 injections were administered and another 6 kilos were gained.
If all this had led to a pain free squat, I might have happily accepted and allowed for another 10 kilos.. but, here I am, with as much pain as when I started, heavier than I’ve been in 18 years and possessing the least amount of health I’ve ever had, making it harder to fix this problem.
I’d be lying if i said it was just the hormone that got me here. Cortisol sent me on a downward spiral that I couldn’t get out of.
You see, the drug wouldn’t let me sleep. Without sleep, I did not have the energy to exercise,or the ability to make good decisions about food.
I spent all day trying to sleep, failing at it, somehow crawling to class and then running back home to attempt to sleep, again.
I finally had to get myself to a psychiatrist last month and get sleep meds(melatonin) to help me sleep again ( I tried every natural thing from meditation to Ashwagandha before doing this) and it took a week of sleep for me to feel in control of my life again.
Im finally at a point where Im exercising, not hating life and cooking healthful foods again. But at 36 and with a messed up thyroid(from the cortisol), this is bound to be a long, slow, painful journey.
So why am I blogging about it? Because till last about 2 weeks ago I was absolutely not in the mood to share how I fixed my life. But then, a member at The Unit was given the same advice for her bad knee(from years of dancing).. take cortisol.
That was the first time I spoke to someone about how it affected me, and it helped. She cleared her house of all junk food(willpower is truly overrated), lessened her work load in preparation for the exhaustion I warned her about, got herself to sleep and came to the gym even if she did not always feel like it.
That was my ‘Aha’ moment. I figured maybe someone else could use this information. Maybe your problems started differently but you’re now at the same point I am. Maybe you have the same long journey ahead of you for different reasons and would like to see how to begin.
Before the injury I was powerlifting, sprinting ,had hit all my strength goals and was making a list of new ones.
Now, Im back to square 1 and maybe you can learn from my mistakes or give me a few pointers or maybe you’re also at square one and you’d like some company.
I don’t know. Maybe I can help or maybe I cant. But here I go. Ill be detailing what I do every week and going through the How-many-ever-steps-it-takes plan for getting back on track when life derails beyond anything you ever planned for.
I hope it helps you. IF it does, maybe drop me a line and make my day?